Excess ain't rebellion

Excess aint rebellion. But to my younger self, aiming and worshipping the older "bad kids", the "rad kids", the rebels...

Excess feels the closest in my outside universe to rebellion. So that's what we copy. Paste. Repeat.

But not, seeing more clearly, renunciation is closer to the rebellion I seek. Heedfulness is the rebellion I seek.

Excess ain't rebellion. It is lusting after escape. Running away. Trying. Failing.